xxMemoriesxx
Mood:  not sure
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Topic: The Past
I don't get why I still want him. I mean, every time I say that I'm through with him, I only manage to act on that for 2 hours tops. We've already made established that he only wants me on his time, which is not all that it's cracked up to be. I can't help, but to sit here and think about all the fun times we had...before I started high school. He was so sweet and caring back then, but now he's just...not himself anymore. It's almost like I don't know who the hell he is. It's a simple, "Who the fuck are you and what have you done with Andrew?!". Maybe I wasn't supposed to see this side of him. None of it makes any sense to me. *sigh* All those hugs and kisses we shared meant a lot to me because I love and care for him so much. Heh, he always did say that I have soft lips, lol. I told everyone from Alfred all the way to Cheeky that I'm done with him once and for all because of what happened last Thursday and Friday. Guess what? I'm not. Every time I get ready to walk out on him, he tries to keep me around, and I never leave! Why?! We already got that I'm foolish and naive, but I think there's more to it. The only person who actually knows what I'm goin through and how I feel is Cheeky. She's the only person, and I still feel for her and Jamar. One day he'll learn not to piss her off, lol. So Andrew said that he wants to chill with me on my b-day and do "stuff". Do I want to? Yes. Can I? Yes. Should I? Not sure. Will my friends approve? Yeah right. My friends don't like him, my mom says I should drop him, my brothers want to kill him, my English teacher thinks I should just forgive him and move on, and I'm the only one who doesn't have an opinion. Well, I do, but it's nothing like theirs. I keep telling myself and everyone that I only want him as a friend, nothing more, but in the back of my mind, I think I want more. I just miss everything about him, from his beautiful smile all the way down to his hairy legs, lol. He's supposed to be my first, but I'm not so sure anymore. The thought of it is, well has been nice, but actually going through with it...idk. I guess I just have wait for him to call me or something. Ya know...love sux some serious ass in my opinion, but then it could also be the most wonderful thing that's ever happened to you.

~*Andrew*~
Mood:  irritated
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Topic: Love sux
Ugh! I hate Andrew! Then again, I love him. ^_^ Something is so seriously wrong with me, and I can't even begin to explain it, lol. Don't you just hate it when your ex plays around with your heart? I know I do. Why does that sick, asshole of a monkey only want me on HIS time? Take yesterday for example: I promised Alfred I would go to his party for his b-day (which I did), and who decides to call me outta nowhere? Andrew! All he basically did was flirt and constantly ask me to come his house and forget Alfred. Yeah right! I'd never dis any of my friends for Andrew of all people. Andrew and I are still friends...in a sense, if that's even what you wanna call it. Okay, okay...we're friends with benefits even though I have a boyfriend (of 3 months). It seems like everytime I get mad at Andrew for something he's done (usually playin me out), it's almost like he does everything possible just to make me happy and keep me around. And being the young, foolish, naive, and in love teenager that I am...I always stay. One day I'll learn to leave him completely. He already struck a nerve the last 2 days of school. I flipped out and scared everyone becuase I was yelling, cursing, and tryna get to Andrew so I could beat the shit outta him! It was really only scary because I'm like the shortest person in school, not to mention the nicest and sometimes quiet. Geez, for such a small person, I have a hell of a lot of energy, lol. Anyways, I was actually supposed to go over his house today to play Madden 2004, but he wasn't home. Okiesh, enough about that tall, slinky, ignorant, obnoxious, conceited (extremely sweet in private) ex boyfriend. Later dayz! ^_~